i'm sick!

i've been in bed for two days, today i'm worse than yesterday. i have a cold and i feel fevery and every joint and muscle in my body ache. and huxley when he sees me in bed shouts at me "get up". i know buddy its disconcerting to see one's parents in bed sick when you are 2, i get it, parents don't get sick days, when we do everything is upside down. a day or two in bed used to be a treat, magazines, ice cream, cokes...now its a dread of the laundry i'll face when i get out of bed and what will everyone do for dinner and what about lux's lunch? but the fridge is full of leftovers and geoff can make a lunch and presumably the laundry and vacuuming will still be waiting for me, when i do decide to get up and out of bed. i think, or know geoff thinks i'm crazy that i worry or think about these things, but my house like his job is a precarious balance of things always on the verge of not working, a day or two off of grocery shopping and house work could really send me in a panic, like a day or two of missed deliverables would for him (and i work too, so i know this, so there, put that in your god damned pipe and smoke it). and lux needs new ballet shoes and at least 2 new good fitting, quality swimsuits and googles and i the swimsuits need to be purchased, well by thursday ideally, as do the ballet shoes for sure and i know its only monday but when will i get to this if i have a mountain of grocery shopping, meal planning, house work, lunches, planning car pools in front of me?? and a few big work deliverables that i don't even know how or where to start.

i don't know how moms that work fulltime out of the house manage, i don't, either they don't sleep or their houses are a wreck or their husbands vacuum. i feel grateful that i work a bit leaving me lots of time for the other senseless stuff called life. and no one told me (mom) that life is a lot of work and its not a good idea to spend two days concurrent in bed, or at least it does have consequences on the other side.

i didn't mention and it would be unfair to miss mentioning that i had a date tonight with some pals to see The Help and i can't see it now with them that i am sick, thats disappointing.